blue blue

i'm blue, feeling so blue...even typing out the first words, tears are formed up my eyes...i don't know what directions i am heading now. i feel........so empty...

what to write? what to say? where's my family when i needed them most? where's DIL? can you feel my sorrows? i'm really totally lost this time, and i'm unsure if i can pick myself up...

my heart is aching.....my "book" is running out of chapters....now it is coming to almost end pages....